Put 'em in the Oven!

This week I have baked more than my entire life all together. So much for things we thought we will never do!

1. Brownies
2. Marble Cake
3. Japanese Cheese Cake
4. Marble Cake Take 2
5. Chocolate Chip Cookies


What's next?

The Book Written by You

Here it is, the last day of the year 2011.
I look back into the pages of all that has happened
and the words that fill it just amazes me.

It's hard to believe how long ago some things has gone by
yet they stay so fresh in my mind;
while others seem so far gone and distant
but they came along not too long ago.

Reading those pages brings back so many feelings.
Feelings of excitement and joy brought by fond memories
and also a sense of lost and sadness to all I had to say goodbye to.

Some pages I have left blank because they were unimportant days
or at least I never did anything special on those days.
Then some were left blank because they are too painful to write
during those days but I filled some of them in again today.

When I look at these pages, I truly see God's hand writing in them.
They were all my choices but He was there everyday.
I would never have been able to stand here and smile
if it wasn't for God's grace and I mean it.
I am able because He is able.

Honestly, I am pretty scared to say this but
I know that I wont have it any other way
because He always gives me His best.

So, God would you please surprise me once again in 2012?


:)


Goodbye, 2011!


Psalm 139:16
In your book were written all the days
that were formed for me,
when none of them as yet existed.

22 Reasons To Celebrate

1. I am still alive and breathing *inhales and exhales deeply*

2. Jesus came to save my soul when all I did was sin. Thank you!

3. My family, who has never failed to support me in all I do

4. My travels. My dream to be in California, USA is fulfilled and I got to visit amazing Australia and Thailand too.

5. Lulu. I have the best friend in the world who never fails to tell me when I'm annoying.

6. I have my legs and hands. I often forget how very helpful they are.

7. Xabi (my dog) is living in an amazing home with wonderful owners. I would never trade this peace I have about how he is doing for anything.

8. My church, KingdomCity. I was so encouraged through this difficult year.

9. A lovely home. There is really no better place than my home.

10. My country, Malaysia. Despite your flaws, I love you all the same because I just can't help myself.

11. POLO BUNS. soooooo good.

12. My first actual LEGO set! I have never been so thrilled!

13. Each and every one of my friends. Thank you for giving me your precious time.

14. Cameras. How else will I keep my memories? Photos still make me smile every time.

15. Cards. I treasure each and every one of them.

16. My beloved relatives, whose love has touched me in so many ways.

17. His faithfulness. God has never failed me! Not once!

18. Trials. I know without them I won't be who I am today.

19. Hope. I know I can face another day because I'm holding to the hope You have promised me.

20. The future. There is so much ahead!

21. A sunny day. Thank you, God for giving me such a wonderful gift.

22. I am a year older! Hopefully, a year wiser with a bigger capacity to give, forgive and most importantly, love.

I Can't Remember, Can You?

It's like forgetting the words to your favorite song.
You can't believe it;
you were always singing along.


It was so easy and the words so sweet
You can't remember;
You try to feel the beat.

~ Eet by Regina Spektor

Take The Step

Close your eyes.

and

just take the next step.

Watching Over You

I'll watch over you while you sleep, Little Evan.



:)

It's Here

m e r r y c h r i s t m a s !

Just Look Around You

Snapped this during my walk with stitch :)


God is my shepherd.
I won't be wanting.

And The Birds Sing

Today, I spotted twice a single bird on a tree
and they look pretty contented in my opinion.
hmm . . .



Sunshine came out today
And it's shining all over the world
Shining all over the world
On every man, woman, boy and girl

And it sure feels fine when the sunshine shines
It warms your skin and your soul within
And the birds sing
Do do do do do do

Say what you gonna do when the clouds come
You gonna hold your head high

Said what you gonna do when the storms come
Keep your eyes to the sky
And It'll tell you why

Cause one day,
the sunshine will shine again
Shine all over the world
Shine all over the world

One day, the sunshine will shine again
Shine all over the world
On every man, woman, boy and girl

And the birds sings

Never too far

H o p e


is


never light years away.

Stitch

d o g s = l o v e

Keep it playing

I forgot how much I love this song until it suddenly played on itunes. I used to play it on repeat and now I remember why.

Details in the Fabric

Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling on your threads
And breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it
If it's a broken arm, then brace it
If it's a broken heart, then face it

And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything will be fine

Hang on
Help is on the way
And stay strong
I'm doing everything

Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold

Choices

Love is a choice.

I have a choice.

I have made my choice.

sigh

You make my life

a w k w a r d .

Let's see

Just because somethings need to be told

does not mean it needs to be heard.


hm, really?

I thought . . .

I thought we'd outlive them all

but

I'm just another brick in your wall.

Sometimes

Don't you just look up at the sky
and ask . . .



WHY ?

(or more like, whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?)


only me?

oh well.

The Last Swing

Today I realise that most people's favourite month is the month of December. Indeed there are plenty of reasons to like December. The kids are on holiday, Christmas is on it's way, then right after New Year comes. I love December for all those reasons too but my personal reason for loving December so much is not even because my birthday falls on this particular month.

I love it because it marks the ending of another year and particularly this year because it was such a tough year in every aspect of my life. Every single time I think back to the month of January, I really had no idea so much things could come by in 12 short months. Almost every thing that happened were incidents and opportunities that had never even crossed my mind.

I won't deny it, it has been a terribly tough year and a part of me really hope that next year would be much easier. I mean, can more things really happen in a year?

Yet I know it has been a good year. Life can be tough but it is always a good life. Life is good whether you're going through it easily or so tough till we think we can go on no more because to be given life is good in itself and for that I'm thankful. I'm thankful I'm alive today making it through 2011.

Somewhere in the middle of this year I had a question that popped into my mind. I asked myself what will happen to me if all the pillars in my life was broken down one by one. And now I know the answer. I will still be standing tall (at 5ft only :) ) and strong because my God who laid His life down for me holds me through it all and that was all I needed to know.

The remedy

I won't worry my life away.

Lovely Day

I have always loved going for walks but I never go on any at home.
And yes, i am going to blame it on the tropical weather and sun for it or maybe it is just me.

Sometimes I do think to myself that maybe I'm just a lazy person who like to think I like walks who actually really doesn't like doing anything at all. Hmm. After today, I'm pretty sure that is not true and I'm just going to continue to blame it on the sun.


I'm really excited on going for another walk soon. I do really need more fresh air. I need to keep going. Thank you for the amazing scenery, God. I needed it. And even if that sun comes out, I want to see myself walking down the path.

Is it worth it all?

I can't do this, Sam.


I know. It's all wrong. By rights we shouldn't even be here. But we are. It's like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger, they were. And sometimes you didn't want to know the end.

Because how could the end be happy?
How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer.

Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now.

Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn't. They kept going. Because they were holding on to something.


What are we holding onto, Sam?


That there's some good in this world, Mr. Frodo
and it's worth fighting for.



Indeed it is.
So, keep going.

Woah

Today I got attacked


by

a

christmas tree


for real


and I got scratches to prove it.

Give Thanks

Today is my very first Thanksgiving!

Also, I learned how to rollerblade for the first time in 21 years.
It's amazing how learning something new can be so satisfying.
It's also funny how painfully scary a fall can be.

So note to self,
never ever stop learning.



oh yeah, I'm pretty thankful I am not a turkey.

It's Your Love

All things may fail around me

but

You are faithful.

Thank you for showing me the beauty of your creation.

It's impossible not to smile when I see how amazing every tree, every cloud, every wave surrounding me. How can I not be thankful that the same Creator created me? Even when I feel like nothing is going right, I know deep down you make all things right. Even when I don't understand, I know you hold the answer. Today, I remember Your Love once again.

Bad Dogs Have More Fun

I think it's almost a month since Xabi is with his new family.

I never like counting the days.

I rather have them just pass each day.

I still miss him so much and I often imagine him running around

but seeing him happy makes me so relieved.

Now I do believe I made the best decision for him.

He deserves the best

because He was his best for me.

Till then I wait to see you again,

in my dreams :)

So Close

Yet still,

so far.

Tell me

How many times have I failed you?

See it the right way

It's so easy to see that

everything is going the wrong way

when we have the wrong glasses on.

Life is beautiful because You gave it.

________________

2 Corinthians 4: 16 - 18

¹⁶ Therefore we do not lose heart.

Though outwardly we are wasting away,

yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.

¹⁷ For our light and momentary troubles

are achieving for us an eternal glory

that far outweighs them all.

¹⁸ So we fix our eyes not on what is seen,

but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary,

but what is unseen is eternal.

Think and Do

"Good intentions doesn't guarantee right actions "

and how often we never get them right?

Why oh why?

I was searching but not any more.

I don't need an answer

cause today,

I'm letting go.

then, I found my answer

You

Let's GO

" A grand adventure is about to begin "

~ Winnie the Pooh

It's always a little scary to step into something new.

Always with uncertainties and possibilities ahead.

It's even more frightening when we don't know what to expect

or maybe it's best not to.

But just like a little story about a bear and his friends,

there is always so much to learn and

so much more to be thankful for.

Indeed it's gonna be a grand adventure.

And this time, it's taking place in USA!

p/s : all i can say is thank you. God, you made my dream a reality.

Keep my heart

Open the eyes of my heart, Lord.

To see the truth where there is uncertainty.

Many voices are all around but

where is your small still voice?

I will wait here.

I'll fix my eyes on You

Only You.

If you knew

I've always knew you had it in you.

The endless possibilities that you could achieve.

The heights that you could reach.

That you could do anything.

Always have and I always will.

I just wish others could see what I see in you too.

If you see it,

You could have the world.

Love,

Your friend

how?

O God, please give me strength?

Help me see.

New Day

Another new day

where hope is brighter.

1 . 1 1 . 1 1

You care.

Water you turned into wine

Open the eyes of the blind

there's no one like you, none like You!

Into the darkness you shine

Out of the ashes we rise

there's no one like you, none like You!

Our God is greater

Our God is stronger

God you are higher than any other

Our God is Healer

Awesome in Power

Our God, Our God

And if our God is for us

then who could ever stop us?

And if our God is with us

then what could stand against?

I stand amaze! You care so much that you would tell it to me 3 times in 4 days.

How could I ignore it? You really hit it out of the park for me this time.

Thank you for telling me You are with me and You care!

I know I can live each day to its best because of that.

note: You spoke Jeremiah 29:11 to me 4 times in 5days :) in awe.

There's no one like You

You told me,

For the old has passed away,

and this is a brand new day.

I choose to trust You.

You alone.

2 Chronicles 16 : 9

The eyes of the LORD search the whole earth

in order to strengthen those whose

hearts are fully committed to him [!]

27 October 2011

Today marks the day of a choice.

It marks the day of surrender.

God, teach me how to live with this 1 month you have given me

What do You want me to do?

Surprise me.

You always do :)

Let's start today!

Hello, 2011 !

New Year, New You.



:)